Hey watched a Charles Manson Documentary his last name is Maddox, really. My Maddox was my little leader too.
I miss the good old days where life was easier and no decisions had to be made .about who I love
And why I do
I can’t explain it why I see you like I do
Is it your piercing blue eyes
Or Sandy blonde hair
Is it the promise of a future
Of diamonds and flair
Promises always made.
But will they be kept,?
You expect so much
But what have I gotten back?
A beautiful dog I love so much
Nights of cuddling and Call of Duty
Is why I care for thee so much
They say your a psycho with no future in sight
That I am just a pawn to help in your plight
I don’t feel this way but your so demanding
I really can’t say?
Quit it all he says, live life on life’s terms
Yeah right I say in my head
I do try my best and more and more take less
Just to make him happy even though he’s not here
He is in my heart so close and yet so far it sometimes becomes unclear
Controlled from behind bars send me money and a 5th of your check
That is so damn stressful each month
Blowing money on commissary
What he asks is too much
But wtf I enabled his crime
With my naive nature and in his thoughts my infinite dime
Who does what I did?
Hand $300 to a meth addict?
He says it’s over and he is done
The drugs won’t take over
And he has overcome
His darkest demons, tribulations and fears
But do I see clearly through all of my tears?
I can’t answer that question to anyone who asks
Is he a real love or a pest with a mask?
Since no one else sees him how I do
Does that mean were meant for each other
Through thick and through?
We have had our dragout battles, fights by the tons
Controlling my nature he tries and has won
But can you paint a leapord and change all his spots?
Or when it next rains will it melt away all the dots?
That is something yet to be seen
Will he be my lovable lover
Or totally insane?
Only patience and time will truly tell
What the future beholds and if it will go well.
Now WordPress is way better than Twitter, Facebook, Myspace, Instagram and Snapchat and all that crap. It’s about real people sharing how they feel. It’s about real subjects and no monitoring and just say whatever you want on here.
I need to go visit my love at the jail and it isn’t just a few hours I am so nervous and I have to keep writing these product descriptions. I got a real job and I’m so lazy I just don’t want to do it. They are so easy for me to but I have such bad ADHD that focusing is extremely difficult for me. It’s not some b******* excuse it’s real talk for real. I have true ADHD I am interested in everything and cannot focus on anythingperiod at night when my meds wear off I’m hyper and I can’t sleep. Don’t people think that it’s because the meds are kicking in.. Then why do I sleep and nap during the day?
The go plus electric bike saved my dog today. That thing will go down a way over 15 degree angle down or straight Hill to catch up pEagle in his barking Glory if you’re wondering this is a beagle and Pitbull mix. His name is Max.
He is a very naughty boy. Luckily my grandfather’s best friend was at the golf course and took me up on a golf cart with my little go plus electric bike that has an average of 12 miles per hour. More accurately like 11. 28 LOL. I wiped out on Route 12 in Greene New York the other day while I was texting my mother. I was trying to get my letter to my boyfriend who is in jail LOL.
I don’t give a s*** I love someone in jail who cares? Any one of us in the world could end up in jail. Jesus ended up in jail so don’t judge and be a hater. I appreciate that you haven’t been caught for your crimes and that these people are doing your time for you. That’s a real way to look at it.