Life is Hard

I miss the good old days where life was easier and no decisions had to be made .about who I love

And why I do

I can’t explain it why I see you like I do

Is it your piercing blue eyes

Or Sandy blonde hair

Is it the promise of a future

Of diamonds and flair

Promises always made.

But will they be kept,?

You expect so much

But what have I gotten back?

A beautiful dog I love so much

Nights of cuddling and Call of Duty

Is why I care for thee so much

They say your a psycho with no future in sight

That I am just a pawn to help in your plight

I don’t feel this way but your so demanding

I really can’t say?

Quit it all he says, live life on life’s terms

Yeah right I say in my head

I do try my best and more and more take less

Just to make him happy even though he’s not here

He is in my heart so close and yet so far it sometimes becomes unclear

Controlled from behind bars send me money and a 5th of your check

That is so damn stressful each month

Blowing money on commissary

What he asks is too much

 

But wtf I enabled his crime

With my naive nature and in his thoughts my infinite dime

 

Who does what I did?

Hand $300 to a meth addict?

He says it’s over and he is done

The drugs won’t take over

And he has overcome

His darkest demons, tribulations and fears

But do I see clearly through all of my tears?

I can’t answer that question to anyone who asks

Is he a real love or a pest with a mask?

Since no one else sees him how I do

Does that mean were meant for each other

Through thick and through?

We have had our dragout battles, fights by the tons

Controlling my nature he tries and has won

But can you paint a leapord and change all his spots?

Or when it next rains will it melt away all the dots?

That is something yet to be seen

Will he be my lovable lover

Or totally insane?

Only patience and time will truly tell

What the future beholds and if it will go well.

 

 

 

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