I miss the good old days where life was easier and no decisions had to be made .about who I love
And why I do
I can’t explain it why I see you like I do
Is it your piercing blue eyes
Or Sandy blonde hair
Is it the promise of a future
Of diamonds and flair
Promises always made.
But will they be kept,?
You expect so much
But what have I gotten back?
A beautiful dog I love so much
Nights of cuddling and Call of Duty
Is why I care for thee so much
They say your a psycho with no future in sight
That I am just a pawn to help in your plight
I don’t feel this way but your so demanding
I really can’t say?
Quit it all he says, live life on life’s terms
Yeah right I say in my head
I do try my best and more and more take less
Just to make him happy even though he’s not here
He is in my heart so close and yet so far it sometimes becomes unclear
Controlled from behind bars send me money and a 5th of your check
That is so damn stressful each month
Blowing money on commissary
What he asks is too much
But wtf I enabled his crime
With my naive nature and in his thoughts my infinite dime
Who does what I did?
Hand $300 to a meth addict?
He says it’s over and he is done
The drugs won’t take over
And he has overcome
His darkest demons, tribulations and fears
But do I see clearly through all of my tears?
I can’t answer that question to anyone who asks
Is he a real love or a pest with a mask?
Since no one else sees him how I do
Does that mean were meant for each other
Through thick and through?
We have had our dragout battles, fights by the tons
Controlling my nature he tries and has won
But can you paint a leapord and change all his spots?
Or when it next rains will it melt away all the dots?
That is something yet to be seen
Will he be my lovable lover
Or totally insane?
Only patience and time will truly tell
What the future beholds and if it will go well.